Saturday, August 30, 2008

Dawn saves the day

I knew I was missing my friends back home, and in that sense is the only real homesickness I've been feeling, but I really miss them now that I got to see Dawn today.

She's here visiting her sister (twins! identical! Lisa's like Dawn but not and I had to try very hard not to be tripped out), who lives in downtown Honolulu, and the two of them plus Mama Omori were nice enough to take me along on their morning trip to Farmer's Market. Cool stuff really - Farmer's Market Hawaii-style is a lot of fun and good food. After about an hour and a half there, we went to Diamond Head Market & Grill for some good take home desserts.

It was nice to finally meet Dawn's sister and of course, see Dawn. Just made me think how much I need to see everyone when I come back home in November.

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Life here has been good, I'm adjusting just fine to my jobs so far, though they're definitely not without their challenges.

Being a Kaimuki HS afterschool teacher is tough, mainly because all 6-8 of my students are LEP (limited English proficient), and so it's really about me checking myself and trying to figure out how to be language sensitive. Really, culturally sensitive too. I have to learn how to communicate with them effectively, and although it's a welcome challenge, I know it will be hard and very draining. It's also my first time in a classroom environment, so although I'm maintaining my mentality of progressive, mutual learning-teaching, I have to figure out how to do it in a manner very differently from what I'm used to.

Then the law office is, well, law office work. Copying, faxing, phones, sending, all that kind of stuff, all while making sure everything is addressed, labeled, and stamped correctly. Tedious, tiring, but all in all doable, and I certainly need the money.

Since the community factor is lacking here, I've been trying to continue my conversations with folks, and enrich my mind with good readings. Also, I went on a massive Obey shopping spree online (as if conscious name brands will improve my chances of keeping up). I think with Scott's daily banter, Aya's from-Japan texts, and being able to chat with my other gchat friends regularly are all DEFINITELY lifesavers too.

Absolutely makes me appreciate my friends back home THAT much more. I miss you all.

Family too - it will be exciting to be back to LA for that week in Nov.

I'm also sad that I don't have pictures for everyone. So here's a pic for all of you of what I bought at the market today:



That's right - APPLE BANANAS! haha I have yet to try them, I hear they're just like regular bananas but sweeter. Yay banas.

Taiko gig later today - I have to own them shakers. That's all I'm playing at this wedding, while all the real KETE (K Endo Taiko Ensemble) performers do their thing.

That's all I've got for now. I think it's naptime.

LOVE.

::edit: I dunno why, but the apple banana pic likes to play some sort of disappearing act on me. Not my fault, and I can't figure it out. So oh well. Image google "apple bananas." It's the first picture.::

Thursday, August 28, 2008

JA Community, Here Goes nothing - but read and THINK.

As I read on, I'm becoming increasingly convinced that The Autobiography of Malcom X: as told to Alex Haley is a must-read for every self-proclaimed Progressive. If you haven't read it, you should, and I know that doesn't mean much just coming from this blog. But take this passage:

The white man's system has been imposed upon non-white peoples all over the world. This is exactly the reason why wherever people who are anything but white live in this world today, the white man's governments are finding themselves in deeper and deeper trouble and peril.

Let's just face the truth. Facts! Whether or not the white man of the world is able to face truth, and facts, about the true reasons for his troubles - that's what essentially will determine whether or not
he will survive.

Today we are seeing this revolution of the non-white peoples, who just a few years ago would have frozen in horror if the mighty white nations so much as lifted an eyebrow. What it is, simply, is that black and brown and red and yellow peoples have, after hundreds of years of exploitation and imposed "inferiority" and general misuse, become, finally, do-or-die sick and tired of the white man's heel on their necks.


Booyah. I could go on forever about how prophetic his words are, 40-some odd years later. And it's all about all people of color, not just African Americans. I think there's still a growing revolution, although in a lot of ways nobody can doubt that the API revolution is and has been long in the making. It's got a long way to go.

But - and bear with me as I switch gears a tad - I think the Japanese American community (in Los Angeles, specifically) has a much longer way to go in the way of Revolution.

Without trivializing the amazing efforts and passions that go into the work, both in Little Tokyo and the larger group, I see a major, key component lacking. I haven't yet figured out if this is the key also to solving some of the prevalent LT issues, but I definitely think it would make a huge difference in the dynamics, effectiveness, efficiency, and power of the JA community.

Everyone can agree on the importance of youth work. Without the passing down of education about community, about history, about the importance of engagement to future generations, nothing will get done. I think community needs, community histories, and the need for involvement have been passed down very effectively. More and more youth, in part thanks to the creation and revival of youth programs through JA nonprofits and other organizations, are getting some sort of awareness lesson in all of these things.

But I think what's also being passed down, is empty rhetoric. Empty rhetoric floats around various organizations - about progressive tactics, politics, actions. Terms like "grassroots," and tactics like "rallies," "protests," that pertain to direct action organizing are being emulated. Notice I say "emulated," and not "accomplished."

With the disclaimer of understanding that I am not in the work, I also say that just because I don't work directly in the community does not mean I do not understand it. I have had relevant conversations with parties in those key spaces, and from those experiences, from those discussions, I inevitably have formed my own analysis of the situation. What I see is, comparable to the Chinatown community, a situation of terribly entrenched politics that have trapped the community council in its own inactions and inabilities to act. Communication may be great on some levels, but it handicaps action.

Including targets and opponents on important, strategic discussions about how to solve and tackle a problem is no strategy at all. These are basics of grassroots organizing, of picking an issue and winning on it.

The situation is, as all such situations are, incredibly and overwhelmingly complicated because of intergenerational politics, varying perspectives and needs, and, of course, the rainbow of political diversity just within the Little Tokyo area. And without solidarity, without unity, OF COURSE nothing's going to get done.

Complexities are no excuse for complacency.

So after a whole summer and more, of thinking, struggling, questioning, criticizing - I've been able to tie some loose ends together. If we can't solve every problem at once, then we need to focus on a few important ones to start. I can break down my key ideas into a few points:

- Those in the community from our generation - the ones educating youth - lack basic grassroots organizing skills.
- Because that generation lacks those skills, it isn't being passed down anywhere, and further political entrenchments give way to more ineffective strategies.
- Either existing youth groups and their coordinators need to engage in getting those grassroots organizing trainings, or there need to be new youth groups that will provide youth with those skills.

First bullet point.

From what I've seen, particularly with those that I went to college with, the younger folk who are now very much invested and involved in the LT work have been in JA-centric work their whole life. And I use the JA-centric term in no negative way - only matter-of-factly. Campus organizational activities were centered around working within the JA community - absorbing their politics, their perspectives, their operations. But the education on grassroots organizing comes from other communities of color - from African Americans, from the Chicano/Latino communities, from Pacific Islanders, and other communities that are directly underserved. Without having REALLY, truly been involved in spaces with those communities - whether they were racially based, or labor-oriented, youth organizing-oriented, and so on - without having had those trainings, there's no clear and explicit understanding of the kinds of tactics and politics that follow that perspective.

I know there are folks who have heard the terms, and heard of the tactics just from sheer exposure to the issues, but that's never enough. Just because you can define it doesn't mean you can DO it.

Second bullet.

And of course, without that understanding, there's nothing to pass down.

What is being passed down is the same stuff that is special to the JA community. It's the same kinds of things the community has been doing for years. Only now, it doesn't work as well as it used to.

Third bullet.

Pretty self-explanatory, right?

The only way for the JA community to revolutionize its definition of what "Progressivism" is, and to truly understand grassroots organizing as other communities of color understand it, is to educate themselves, and then be able to pass it onto the youth.

Here's my example - if post-grad JAs truly knew how to grassroots organize, if the Los Angeles JA community KNEW HOW TO GRASSROOTS ORGANIZE, the Korean American, Chicano/Latino, and other families DIRECTLY impacted by gentrification would have been involved in this entire process from the beginning in some shape or form. I understand the issue of privilege in the ability to organize, but they currently have little to no representation in these Little Tokyo spaces. Or if they do, they're not being seen or heard. There are only advocates. There are no organizers in Little Tokyo.

And second example - if the LA JA community knew how to grassroots organize, that rally would have been hundreds of people strong and swarming with media, whether ethnic or mainstream.


I am fully aware of the fact that these points can be taken as direct attacks on particular people, groups, or events. But let me reiterate that there is a lot of passion and care being put into the long hours of work LT has been doing. They do a lot of things well, I can agree on that.

But there is ALWAYS room for improvement, and in this area, I think there is a ton of room.

I recognize that the formation of a new youth group as a goal can seem unrealistic or lofty, because of logistics pertaining to the sources of these youth - where they would come from, whether they would have to time, concerns about frequent turnovers, etc - and that's why I'm going to keep inquiring and talking to folks about possibilities.

It would be ideal to turn an existing JA community youth group into that grassroots organizing, consciousness-raising space, but to be honest, I don't think the already-existing JA community nonprofits are ready for rhetoric about white supremacy, patriarchy, heteronormativity and capitalism. The situation of starting it somewhere, and then having funding pulled by a foundation because of the "radical" nature of this material is incredibly possible.



Now, a couple of JAs I know who have had those trainings in some shape or form, myself included, are oftentimes too frustrated to go back to the community because of that lack of understanding. And I can see just from my first steps to finding out how to start such a youth group that even thinking about or talking out such an idea is already incredibly difficult.

But! I will keep trying, and keep thinking. I'm at the law office and this computer is freaking out, so I'm going to stop here.

I hope that readers can see where I'm coming from and be willing to talk. This is really something I feel strongly about, and it's been a long time since that has happened. (NAPAWF is the only other thing that makes me all riled up and motivated!)

Too bad I'm in Hawaii, but maybe this year needs to happen without me back in LA.

Until later!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

You say China, I say I'm worried about your students

One of the jobs I'll be starting on Monday is as an afterschool teacher at the local Kaimuki HS, literally a hop, skip and a jump away from home.

These afterschool global studies classes are run out of an organization called Pacific Asian American Council, and essentially they're a seemingly pretty cool nonprofit that promotes greater understanding between international affairs as it relates to Hawai'i's state, economically, politically, socially, and otherwise.

I went to a conference they put on today, just for the heck of it - if I'm going to be a part of this and meet great people (mostly older, white teachers - that's haole folk, for the local language-impaired, like me) I might as well take what they can offer.

Long story short - the conference was on China - 4 workshops on different topics. One of them was on the pop music culture in China, and I swear, there was this one teacher - a few even - who was saying the most ridiculously ignorant things. Things like, "what? Rock music? I didn't even know Chinese people did stuff like that!" or "yeah, I think Chinese students - quiet, you know, whatever, but they're totally not all punk like this!" or, my personal favorite - "when I saw your name, I thought you'd be you know, a typical Chinese professor, but then you walk in with your long hair and your Aloha shirt...."

I was seriously ready to shoot someone.

(in the figurative sense of course - you never can be too careful with these blog expressions)

It just made me think, at first reaction, what the fuck are these people doing here then!? You have these horribly stereotyped images of your students, and you expect to be able to teach them anything!?

I was disgusted.

I admired the lecturing professor for addressing her directly, acknowledging her dumb comment, and saying "then it's YOUR job to undermine those assumptions and stereotypes." I was just like, THANK GOD, but I would've been happier if he just told her she was an idiot.

Anyhow, so as not to socially and openly alienate everyone else there, I cooled myself down and tried to tell myself they just had a lot to learn, and were probably doing good work at their respective high schools.

Whatevs, I just had to share. Welcome to adjusting to White people in Hawai'i. It's a shame the educational system here is so problematic they have to bring more of them in here!



hahaha am I racist or what!? well shit. At least I can admit it.

Tomorrow for me, Today for you

my horoscope. things are looking up!

For the common good ***
Valid during many months: During this time gradual changes will take place in your life that will make you more aware of the external and internal forces that make your life move in certain directions. You will gain great psychological insight into yourself and others at this time, and you will go below surface appearances to seek out the fundamental elements of any issue. This is also a time when you may gain power over others in some way, either in your personal or your professional life. You may be given the authority to direct a project or a group of people working together. However, you should be aware that you are acting as an agent of forces that transcend your own individuality, and that everything you do must be for the common good, or it will be to no avail. Sometimes the power can take a form that has nothing to do with authority. It may be that your own personality becomes powerful from within, making you a person of moral influence. Without even being aware of the process yourself, you speak with wisdom and others heed what you say. People may be drawn to you, fascinated by your energy and power. Of course this confers the greatest possible responsibility upon you, because you can misuse this power, but the consequences for you would not be good! Under this influence you may choose to undergo psychotherapy or work with other mind-expanding disciplines in order to increase your self-understanding. In your professional life you may feel that you have a very significant task to perform at this time, one that is far more important than your usual work. You feel that your work could transform the whole nature of your career, not only for yourself but for others in the same field. You have a much greater sense of purpose in your work than usual. If you take the time to communicate this in detail to others, you can be really effective. But if you assume that your insight is obvious and that everyone else sees what you see, you will become isolated from those who could help, and therefore you will be ineffective.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

The first transition post.

Since this blog has become so important to me this summer, I decided I would continue it (with a new look!), both to keep my mind working like it did back in LA, and so that I stay sane. I'm the type of person that fancies herself a writer at times, and so what if I'm no pro!? When I'm walking and thinking about writing a piece on myself walking in a Hawaiian Island downpour, I think it's brilliant.

SO. Hawaii so far. It's been almost two weeks, and I haven't had a hint of homesickness yet. David and Kelsey are amazing, and the taiko folks are very warm and welcoming. It's just going to be a lot of adjusting, what with two jobs and having to learn an entirely new set of repertoire. At least I can read music.

I definitely miss the organizing piece back in LA, since it's been hard to locate anything specifically of interest here. For now, I'll have to settle for an afterschool teaching job and a law office receptionist position, along with taiko, to satiate my needs. It's definitely not community work...but maybe I'll run into something along the way.

The plan is to read some radical, progressive books while I'm at it to keep my mind fresh.

At risk of making this first entry unbearably long, I'll stop here. But look at my celebrity lookalike collage below! I LOOK LIKE ASHTON KUTCHER! How. ridiculous.

Miss you all, LA friends and loved ones.




PS I'm cameraless since it got lost at my goodbye party, so don't expect many exciting pics anytime soon! Sorry.

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Pedigree - Yad Vashem research

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Oh lordy lord, WHEN WILL THEY EVER LEARN

Martin Bashir is gross.

If that doesn't gross you out, I dunno what does. I just don't get why people think it's okay to make comments like this, in very public speeches, nonetheless. At least he looks like a fool forever.

I'm blogging lots this week because I'm done in like 3 days!

Here's a pic for your viewing pleasure: (and NO it's not PRON) --> that's the online euphemism for porn



Even I can hear myself laughing in that pic.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Trying not to kill myself

In the most figurative sense of the phrase, of course.

BUT WHO KNEW that putting together an introductory training for high school girls on advocacy could be so difficult!? I haven't had to think this hard in--

SINCE I started social justice work!

Youth organizing will definitely be the challenge of my life if I ever decide to take it on. This training on Friday had better be bomb or it means I fail at activist life.

Now THAT would suck.

::edit - I meant, an introductory advocacy training for high school girls. "high school girls on advocacy" sounds like it's some kind of drug. HAH. I'm funny. ::

I think someday soon I want to get into youth organizing

It's my last week! I can't believe it. This was the last NAPAWF staff call I was on - although I'm not too involved, I'll miss hearing everyone talk about their work, what the org is up to on a national level, all that sort of thing.

Work consists of: finishing factsheets, finalizing chapter Voter Engagement calendar, and as the biggest project, get together that training for YLW (Young Leading Women) that will happen on Friday. ahhh! Lots of work to do, and even less time to do it.

Other things I have to do/finish this week:
--> JA Grant Project on leading activist women in the JA community (I have a TON of work left on this one)
--> Pack for Hawaii
--> See everyone before I leave
--> Write that intro!

hahah that's right. Sorry folks, I just got super caught up this weekend and didn't have time to do it. Even after I wrote that email promising I would finish it! But I will don't worry, hopefully I can work on it for a bit sometime today and at least get a draft out to you all via google docs. I was kind of in this weird haze this whole weekend - when I try to think back on it, it's all a blur because I dunno, I think I was just all over the place.

Meanwhile, will have fun gchatting with you folks, esp Megan, and try and make the most of my time left here. Can't wait to see Nessa again! And Hannli and Kirstie, I hope we can do Office Depot shopping soon. I think Hannli is the funniest impulse buyer/nonbuyer I've ever seen, and Kirstie is the most decisive!! She knows what she wants. hahahaha GOOD TIMES.

I'm scared that once I get to Hawaii I won't have a community to work in! I dunno what I'd do without an outlet for my activist passions.

Glad I will get to see you all tonight, that will be fun! LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.