Ah, the perks of working part-time.
I'm not gonna lie, it's been a rough and tough 2 weeks, trying to figure out the name of this Council game and really grappling with my mixed feelings about my new-found employment. I kind of feel like everything I had envisioned myself doing in this time just didn't pan out because of my own decisions.
CHOICES. That's what life's all about, isn't it? Those, and then those things that come after them. Yeah, that. Consequences.
When it came down to it I chose convenience and instant gratification over the waiting game, because I'm sure that is how it would have been otherwise...or at least so I think I would LIKE to think.
But the latter half of this week has proven to be pretty fruitful. I know now that I can do this job well, and considering this is still a small and budding organization, there is still hope.
Kind of ironic, isn't it, how I wrote and gabbed all that stuff about the JA community, and suddenly I find myself thrown into the midst of everything I complained about? Maybe it's karma for my college-aged arrogance and audacity.
Maybe this'll teach me exactly what I need to learn to really know what I want the rest of my life...or at least for the next few years or so.
Little by little it's coming together, but I guess it always tends to work that way.
Then talking to supportive friendsies like Aya, Dok and Scott always is good for lifting spirits. YAY for friends, foreal.
Meanwhile, home life is dumb. Not in the "I hate my parents" kind of way at all...but more like, they're cutting open the walls to replace our pipes and the family decides to STAY HOME while this is all happening!
Dumb = from 7 am - 4 pm, everyday for 2 weeks, we have no use of any water in the house, so even on my day off, when I just want to stay home and SLEEP...I have to get out and find a place to use the damn bathroom. Not to mention brush my teeth and then otherwise just chill. Anyone want to volunteer their place?
K thanks.
Life just never stops with all of the things to ponder and figure out. It's a good thing most of the time, but sometimes, like now, it's pretty baffling. I feel like I'm sort of in this mess trying to figure out the direction of my life.
One big transition. From the time I left Hawai'i, that fateful April 13, until who knows when, I'm sort of just doodling blind. Hands over the eyes, pen to the paper, and draw. Except those pictures end up being all the things I'm doing in my life. Then when it's all over, look at the picture and see where I went, what I did, and I can only hope it'll all make sense.
That magical end product.
It'd better be magical.
Speaking of magic, hoping for that Disneyland trip on June 12th! Crossing my fingers.
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