There are a million things I've been wanting to write about, but things have been so incredibly crazy the past 6 months or so that I haven't had the time or the energy to sit down and hash it out.
I'm not going to be able to do it now either, which is a bummer, but I guess I can force some of it out and see where this post takes me.
On a happy note, Dok has finally made it over, which has been, well, in adventure, in so many words. But I'm happy to be able to share all of my joyous and sad times with him now. We can struggle together, and it's a good feeling.
I am now full-time at work! We had our huge conference in September and although it was the craziest week of my entire life (working 12-17 hour days everyday, for 7 days), our tiny staff pulled off a huge success and it was the best feeling ever. I guess we staff in LA were also rewarded, as we're both full time here now. It's exactly what I had wanted and hoped for, but thought could never happen. It feels good to love your job. I'm learning so much, becoming connected to some good people, and all in all, feeling fulfilled with the time I am putting into this mini-career. It's definitely not a radical environment, but it provides me with exposure to some people and places I never would have met or seen otherwise.
LSATs are and will always be, a struggle. I took the October test, but due to illness ended up canceling. It was a tough decision, but I guess just as well...I wasn't where I wanted to be score-wise anyway. Going to see if I can pull it back together and retake in December, hopefully with a 10 point score increase! We can dream, right?
Taiko has also been a toughie...for more reasons than one that I won't enumerate here, but all I can say is that I hope it gets better soon. If it continues to stress me out...well, I hate to say it, but I just might have to rule it out as a continued activity, because there are already a million things on my plate.
Prison re-entry work has been on and off when I can find the time, but I have entered myself into the program/campaign as a more involved volunteer. I hope that I can keep it up, but it really is discouraging with everything that I know I already have to do. What is great about this involvement is that it is only twice monthly, and doesn't demand any more than I can give. Now if only to really be strict about what I can ACTUALLY give, rather than what I want to give. That's definitely, without a doubt, the hardest part. I think though, if I can really stick with it, I could gain a lot of perspective and of course, build a good resume and a good cause for myself to believe in. I miss the Progressive sphere, and this is my outlet. Without it I'd probably be lost.
Currently reading my first Bell Hooks book, upon Aya's recommendation, on Feminism. She is the most amazing progressive-minded writer you will ever read. Clear, concise, and so down. It's amazing how much of a wealth of knowledge her writings hold. Also helps me stay connected and remain critical about the world around me.
Speaking of which, the intersection of progressivism and US-Japan relations (think: global issues) has really been taunting my mind lately. I still haven't been able to articulate to myself what all of that really means for me, but I suppose only time will tell. Taking the critical progressive lens into work has been an interesting challenge - one I haven't yet been able to tackle fully, but one, I hope, with time, will enable me to emerge out of this experience an even more sharply-minded person.
Going to study with sister on Friday, which will be fun, and then seeing Aya and Jason on Saturday for PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!!! So excited!!!!
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